life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Saturday, July 21, 2012

Wrestling with Grey

This one just did not want to arrive.  It was a struggle, not just artistically but I wrestled with it emotionally.  Color would go in then literally melt and disappear into the image. I have no explanation for that...It was very strange!

It maybe saying much more about me than I am ready to look at right now.

But then I heard this music and I just knew it was time to stop.  I knew that this is just the way it was supposed to be.  One lesson I have had a hard time learning is when to stop drawing, when to stop trying to make something right, when it is time to step back  and "let it be" before I over work it and ruin it.

and so this time I did....I just stopped.
Link to larger image and lyrics

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