life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Monday, May 30, 2016

do not want to be afraid....

And here is another version of “do not die with regrets…. “    I have been told time, after time, that the most common sorrow just before death is not repentance for the wrong we have done but the regret for the things in life that you did not do.

And the question that bounces around in my head over and over again is why.  Why don’t we do the things we have always wanted to do?  Is it those rotten rules again?  Is it fear of being different?  Afraid to hurt someone we love?  Breaking the law?

What….what ...what stops me from doing all of those things that I want to do?  Why am I such a chicken about everything.  How is it that I am afraid of so many things
…..but I am not afraid to die.

"She is Not Afraid"  One  Direction






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