life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Tuesday, May 14, 2013


Seems simple, but for me this statement is full of guilt and selfishness instead of being an uncomplicated statement of self-care.

The sharing and engaging are easy; it is disconnecting that creates the problem. The disconnecting is the source of my angst.  

I want to be liked and loved...sacrificing my own feelings to make that happen.   

Am I the only one that does not know the difference between self-care and selfishness?  

How do I learn this?

1 comment:

  1. You are not the only one who does not know....