life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Maybe...it is not worth having....

And that is what I keep telling myself….over and over and over again.Will it ever stop hurting? 
How and when do I let go?
Will I ever learn that my value is not measured by others love, affection or attention.
I have to do this myself.
I cannot allow myself to need and that is much harder than I expected.

"Defying Gravity"  Lea Michele

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