life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....

I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this raunchy disease. My words always help me understand that in this life there will be times that are crappy painful and unexpected but tucked in there are the amazingly wonderful, too. That is when I realized the only control I have over any of this is how I chose to experience them! I realized that I could understand, celebrate can survive even better when I could express these feelings with my own words of courage, humor, and grace. I am the Queen of my own life and the choice is mine!

I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to grieve my losses, to laugh long and hard, and to learn how to live a full magnificent life with heart failure.

I am honoring my creativity, and exploring all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say....."Don't talk like that!"



Tuesday, November 11, 2014

I believe...

Not giving up, I have too much more to do!  

I have a purpose and I have so much more to do.  I can do this with strength, resolve and love.  
I can do this!
"I believe this is not the end of me, 
this is the beginning!
I believe today it is ok to not be ok.
Hold on...hold on!"

"I Believe"  Christina Perri

My wonderful little young, female doctor that in one breath says she adores my attitude and wishes more of her patients were like me and then in the next breath tells me I am in denial, and I am not wrapping my head around the danger and the seriousness of this.  I carefully try to explain that I unserstand the denial and I like with me!  And now I think she will!  We have got some work to do, some ugly meds getting added to the mix, that if I am lucky will stave off an even uglier procedure.  Things are changing, I am just not sure I was ready for it to begin happening, although I have had plenty of time to get ready for this!  I got to get busy I am here for a reason and I have a lot more to do!

1 comment:

  1. You are on my mind always, Cheryl. You will make lemonade, you will dance, you will show this "dis-ease" who is boss. You will make art of all of this.