life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Tuesday, November 4, 2014

brokenness...

Everything breaks, everything changes, it is how I manage the pieces that will define me. I struggle so much to hold on to my own self-esteem and self-love.  It seems to break when I am feeling the least confident and unsure of myself.  That is when the proverbial rug is pulled out from under my feet.    Do I accept the changes gracefully or do I scramble like a mad woman to put things back the way they were?  How will I know if I should embrace my brokenness or fight for the way it used to be?


"Come on Get Higher"  Matt Nathanson

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