life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings
Don't Talk Like That...
I write to find out what my heart thinks.... I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say "Don't talk like that!"
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
Letting go of....
Sometimes things are not how or what you expect them to
be. I thought this part of my life would
be about holding on. Holding on to
relationships, love, time, memories, but what I am learning is that it is
exactly the opposite. It is about
letting go! That concept is just now
beginning to show up in my work. Letting
go of the tight images, the perfect pretty pictures others perceive as good art and I thought they
expected from me. I want to embrace the
emotions and the feelings that are present in that moment. It is not about holding on. I want to live and be free enough to let it go
and express the feelings. Letting go of
expectations and living it all.