So, when I politely say no, it does not mean I do not appreciate you, it means I need to maintain what little control I have over my own life, right now.
Keeping my power means not falling into the make it better trap. Nobody can make this better; nobody can help me cope. It is on me and only me.
I am afraid that if I do not control what is done now, I will have no options when I get down the road. If I get into the habit of depending on others, I will be doing nothing more than making it worse for everyone around me and me. I have watched this scenario play out time and time again. I cannot allow fear of this disease, force me into to bad decisions now.
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