life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to grieve my losses, to laugh long and hard, and to learn how to live a full magnificent life with heart failure. I am honoring my creativity, and exploring all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say....."Don't talk like that!"


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Saturday, June 14, 2025

Start...Stop...Wait...What!



I could be the only person to fail a medical test before I have it.  I was scheduled to have some cardiac tests by one doctor, but another doctor felt my heart may not be strong enough for that(cardiac stress). They canceled them….Wait…What?  I am usually the one turning down repetitive tests and exams that tell us the same thing over and over again. My heart is broken; they cannot fix it. Why keep spending money and getting my hopes up to find out “How broken is it now?” 

I let my guard down and was excited about this earlier in the week. There was a possibility, they would show I could have new/different meds to increase my quality of life. Unfortunately, it feels like I missed that boat. I have been here before and for a really really long time…I know how this works.  I should have known better. I get a little dose of hope and “this might help” thoughts and I am ready to go for it again. I should have known better.

(and just in case you missed it, I have not figured out how to embed music on my posts, however, I have had 2 spectacular failures!)


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