I am not confident!
Not anymore, not like I used to be.
My cheering section is gone. Not
the big “rah-rah, pom-pom” cheering section, but the “go for it, what have you
got to lose?” The quiet support, I believe in you cheering section. Although I have
wonderful supportive friends, it is not quite the same. It is just me now at
4:30 in the morning waking up in terror as my mind violently asks what the hell do you
think you are doing? No, I am not
confident, but I am trying. Tonight, at iLLminART I will have a collaborative piece
(with Maureen Williams) titled “Skip’s Light” it is my first work since Skip died
and will be my third attempt to be at an opening with my work. The first attempt failed miserably when I had
to abruptly leave in an emotional meltdown.
The second opportunity I just could not go, this time I need to “just do
it”. Oh please, let the confidence
follow!
"Die Trying" Dave Matthews Band
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