Anxiety is such a huge issue in grief, who knew? I am learning that feelings of anxiety are
normal for those who have survived sudden, intense loss or trauma. Although I
have never had a fear of crowds, doing art shows, gallery openings, teaching…but
inside this grief, any unknown and the whole world feels unsafe except for the
little home that Skip and I spent more than 40 years in. Anywhere else requires
I maintain a constant vigilance: searching for early warning signs of trouble,
guarding against more loss. I mentally and emotionally rehearse what I would do
if I were faced with unthinkable trauma AGAIN.
I am learning that this problem, rather than helping me
feel safe, is becoming a perpetual fear creating a small, hard, painful life
that isn't safer than any other life. I
see it and with help I am working on it….
"Her Diamonds" Rob Thomas
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