life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to grieve my losses, to laugh long and hard, and to learn how to live a full magnificent life with heart failure. I am honoring my creativity, and exploring all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say....."Don't talk like that!"


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Saturday, January 4, 2020

It feels so wrong...


Sometimes I really want to be angry! But it feels so wrong!  We had plans that we made our whole lives.  I did not realize or appreciate all the little things you did do around the house.  I have never lived alone in my life…it takes a whole new set of skills that I suck at.  I was supposed to die first wrapped in your loving arms.  It is hard to reach anything on the top shelf without you here.  I forget to take out the garbage.  It is difficult to make one cup of coffee in a pot made for 12 cups. Although I really do hate to cook, I am getting tired of frozen TV dinners!  But most of all….I desperately miss just being touched by you, even it was nothing more than a quick hug.  I miss you more than you will ever know!


"Everything I Own"  Bread

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