life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to grieve my losses, to laugh long and hard, and to learn how to live a full magnificent life with heart failure. I am honoring my creativity, and exploring all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say....."Don't talk like that!"


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Monday, January 13, 2020

Finding my Strength


I have been taking a decluttering class online.  The title was “Get Rid of 99 Things in 21 Days”.  After 40 years in one house, it is scary amazing how much stuff we had amassed.  Like the rest of my life, I learned well how to hide my imperfections.  My way of maintaining the semblance of calm and organization was simple...hide it.  Under beds, in closets, in cupboards, it looked good but underneath it is was a frustrated, mixed up, unorganized mess of emotions and stuff.  Most of it is stuff I really do not even want of need, but there seems to be an underlying fear of not having or being enough….still!

So, as I heal from my own grief and loss, I can also heal some of my other issues.  The grief still makes it difficult for me to go out into public (you know around lots of people, I have no idea what that is about, it just is) this class is giving me tools to “fix” some of my clutter frustrations, and the time in my most comfortable environment.  Surrounded by love and memories.  I am not hiding from the world I am finding my strength.

"Celebrate Me Home"  Kenny Loggins

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