Today I feel like I am walking away from a train wreck. Saw it coming, knew it was going to happen, and
I should have been totally ready for the impact…but I was not.
Yesterday was heart cath day, This is just one of have had
several I have had over the years. They
are explosively invasive tests that literally make a small incision in the
femoral artery and run a wire directly into my heart. I hate these things; there is absolutely
nothing that makes me feel more vulnerable than this test where I am required
to bare my crotch and my heart to complete strangers. The test went well, but the results
sucked. I have known for 5 years that I
have heart failure, I have known since the beginning that it is terminal, I have
known for the past few weeks that things are changing and now I understand why. The train wreck has happened, I just have to get up off the ground, brush myself off, gather
up my courage and keep walking away from it......keep moving forward.
"All About Your Heart" Mindy Gledhill
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