It is done. I made a decision …..well to be honest, I think the decision
had been made years ago, but last year I caved into medical pressure and advice.
Hope and fear are influential bedfellows and when combined become a powerful convincing
weapon. Extreme measures were taken, surgeries
were planned and executed that gave everyone, and that includes me, the ability
to legitimately say, we tried everything! Or am I being incredibly naïve, could
it have been my “hope and fear” that created my willingness to try anything did
nothing more than generate a profit and relieve legal liability responsibilities
for the doctors and hospitals... I risked my future, my money and my life. They
risked nothing and generated a huge profit. Financially, physically, emotionally the
surgeries last year were the hardest thing I have ever done, and I cannot begin
to entertain the thought of going through that or anything like it again. I
stopped it before the hope and fear have a chance of enticing me into gambling
my entire future, economically and emotionally again. Yes it is scary and
uncomfortable and way outside my comfort zone!
"Fumbling Towards Ecstasy" Sarah McLachlan
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