This is HEEE-UGE! I never
realized why I was so angry at the beginning of my heart failure I could not figure out why I just could not
seem to heal or resume some kind of normal life after skip died…and then I
realized….no one was listening to or hearing me.
I do think it would be selfish of me to think everyone
should be interested and vested in my life enough to listen and validate my
every whim, nor do I have special requirement levels of participation for friends
and family or strangers for that matter.
But…
I think perhaps my daily writing has given me a big leg up
in exploring feelings. Not because I am
that smart, but because from the very beginning of this, I have needed some kind
of outlet and blogs were free. And there
is another perk! When I write there is
no one to argue with me. I can whine,
bitch, berate the president or Republicans in general, and this list could go
on forever. But I can also remind myself
how fortunate I am. I can celebrate life and love, and leave a “map” of how I
did it if I need to refer back. I have no idea who is reading this but I have
an idea of how many, simply because the hosting site keeps track of the hits,
so on some level, I am being heard. I used to watch and celebrate those numbers
regularly… I was feeling HEARD. Maybe
not heard in a traditional way, but my thoughts, my failures, and my successes are
“out there” in the world for anyone that wants to hear.
"Connected" Eric Bibb
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