Sometimes I find social interaction exhausting. The effort to
join the world again is Herculean and monumental. Those densely scattered grief
land mines are hard to face and they jump out at me from everywhere. I watch
myself shrink my world down by, refusing invitations to just about anything and
everything. By controlling the size of
my world, I keep myself safe. More than
40 years of my life are right here in this little house. The love, the fights, the children all of
those memories are right here. As outgoing as I have always been, I find that I
need a lot more time alone and quiet than ever before waiting for the muddy water to clear.
"Alone Again" Gilbert O'Sullivan
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