Everything Changes

 I had given up writing, although I tried not to, it just happened,  I have no explanation.  It just did not feel good, I found making stuff up because I thought that people expected of me.  To be entertaining, stoic, strong, focused and the list goes on.  Dealing with a huge loss where I lost half of my life, navigating my own health challenges, and then we have the ever-present covid.  What if anything did I have uplifting to contribute to the world?  I stopped.  

Now perhaps I need to start addressing the issues out loud, from a perspective I do not understand.  Tip going back to the emotion tools from Artists way, I need to look at my writing, not as a way to inform, entertain, share feelings and perhaps give up mild hints about how I am dealing with w chronic terminal disease.  Luke Julia said, it broadcasts to the universe what I want, what I want to let go of, and to identify what I want, what is possible and a way to cast the negativity out of my life.  I know things are changing, so will the blog.