Wonky...

“Anxiety is exhausting. It sucks. And it's not even useful, no matter how much it screams that it's real.

Fear thoughts create a brain response, which creates a body response, which conditions your thoughts to come up with more fears, which starts the cycle again. And this is why you can't talk yourself out of anxiety.

We have so much shame around anxiety; we often pretend we aren't feeling it. It's never effective to pretend you aren't afraid. Pretending you aren't afraid makes your interpersonal relationships come out wonky and makes you feel incredibly unstable.”

Wonky is one of my favorite words, mostly because I do not think there is a definite definition. I was/am a great pretender! Yes…I am afraid…a lot.  Yes…I hate this vulnerability.  Yes…I am all kinds of meds for anxiety, and no when it comes to my (or anyone else’s) heart, there is nothing we can take to stop the pain of loss.

I allow it to happen. I talk to myself (and Skip) and ask what am I really afraid of, what is the worst that could happen now? 

"Crazy"  Seal