a new capacity....

Yep…this one popped up again…. clearly I need more work….

Transformations are hard!  Different is incredibly uncomfortable! And the capacity to find a new comfortable is emotionally wrenching!  The first inclination is always to run back to the place where it was comfortable, happy, and heart filling, but the unforgiving reality is that those are the exact set of circumstances that created or they were critical in hiding the real problems.  Now,  I think I can go back, but I cannot go back with the same set of “eyes” that refused to see.  I cannot discount my own heart and emotions in an effort to be the good agreeable one.  This time I have to see all sides of the relationships I am considering, beginning, ending, keeping, or continuing.

I am falling, nope I am being shoved into something different and I hope it will bring me a wonderful new capacity to be beautiful.

"Some People's Lives" Janis Ian