life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Pollock Painting...





There are so few opportunities for artists to create for the sheer enjoyment of celebrating the creative process.

A video lesson from MOMA (Museum of Modern Art, NY) and discussion on Jackson Pollok, abstract expressionism, and his specific techniques was the inspiration of what can only be described as a day of sheer magic and more creative fun than we could have ever imagined! 

How lucky I am to have such fantastic opportunities and phenomenal creative friends!

Monday, December 17, 2012

and we ho-ho-hoooooo-ed!

 
                                             



Saturday, December 15, 2012

38 years...



Nothing changes...Everything changes…

Through 38 years of loving, fighting, births and deaths, we are still here, still together.

And the greatest thing we have learned is being together requires a great deal of being independent, respect for each other’s dreams and the space needed to grow as self-sufficient beings. 

Celebrating the years, living in the experiences, and loving the life we have made. 
Thank you my love, thank you for the years and my awesome life.
...and Thank you Darren, our son and one or our greatest gifts to the world (and ourselves) for celebrating with us and taking us out to dinner.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Celebrating Synchronicity 12-12-12

and bucket list # 36-DD attempt!!
 

Celebrating the synchronicity of 12-12-12,
I have screwed up my courage and sent in my application for the 2013 Orlando Nude Nite
cross you fingers!

12-12-12 entry for  a show on 02- 14/15/16- 2013 
Just way too many consecutive numbers not to!
The Universe is SCREAMING at me to do it!



Monday, December 10, 2012

Hats & Sunglasses

A lifelong friend is a blessing, indeed. I do not think there are many who can claim a friend for over 50 years, but I can! The best part of having a dear friend, a bosom buddy, partner in crime, a kick-ass companion is that there are years and years of serious “fun” experience. One phone call, one drop of the hat and it is on! And it was so ON this past Sunday, it was so ON. New purple hats, a few too many “Stellas”, a funky blues band and you have the makings of serious black mail material.

That kind of explains the hats and sunglasses.......

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Morning Coffee and the Gecko!

Just about everyone that has come to visit me, has heard the Tokay Gecko "crowing" but he keeps himself mostly hidden....But this morning when I pulled out my coffee pot to pour in the water he was coming along for the ride! YIKES!!! (video has old crowing mixed with this morning's pics!)
He has lived at our house for 13 years now, in the walls and around the backyard, but every now and again he comes inside for a visit!
video
This one is baby blue with hot pink to orange spots depending on what time of year. He/she is a Tokay Gecko. According to "experts" they eat cock roaches and small rodents, which may explain why he has been at my house for so long and they have a "nasty" personality (again may explain why he/she has been at my house for so long.) Any way we have a healthy respect for each other, and pretty much do not mess with one another, however this mornings coffee pot ride scared the hoooooooey out of me and may be CROSSING THE "healthy respect for each other" LINE!

Sunday, December 2, 2012

The Cinderella Scenario & Bucket List Item #32-B

As a little girl, I was consumed with the Cinderella story. With my very own real life wicked step-mother and step-sisters, I almost had the perfect Cinderella scenario. The only problem was I had the story back ass-wards with my step sisters being absolutely gorgeous, well-proportioned dark haired beauties and I, the Cinderella was the ugly, chubby, curly red headed, clumsy and slow one. I really wanted to be the beautiful Cinderella, with my own fairy godmother, glass slippers and Prince Charming but then doesn’t every little girl?

Life is not the fairy tale I dreamed of. I never got my glass slippers and then I found out there is no such thing as a fairy godmother. But, I have learned that if I want something bad enough, I can get it by doing it for myself.

To that end, I have included my version of glass slippers on my bucket list.  There are, however some serious design modifications.  Realizing that glass high-heeled shoes would be horrifically uncomfortable, I have opted for canvas flats. Here they are, not glamourous, glass, or high heeled, but flat, doodled, and glittered (sure wish the camera flash did not wipe out the glitter sparkles)!
And....I cannot wait to dance in them!

Check off Bucket List item #32-B and bring on my Prince Charming!